The joining

THE JOINING
This year has been so tiring, but full of joy. Shaune and I joined a new church. It was difficult to leave a church like Crossroads, when the people you love there are family. Sometimes, I feel as though I let a lot of people down by leaving. Many people were angry and felt betrayed to hear that we were no longer members, even though we told them that it was God's calling to this church. But you know what I realized... no one really misses us. No one from crossroads ever calls us, not even just to catch up. But than again, I have not called either. People come and people go. They are only in our lives for a fleeting moment.
It is a small church, and month by month we are growing. We were presented to the church before Easter, and there was cheering galore. I must say that I blushed when a 70 year old woman hugs me and shakes the hand of me and my husband and tells me, "Im sure you will be teaching us more than we will be teaching you." That made me feel so funny standing up there are hearing that. God uses all things for a purpose and even the smallest of person such as an infant can be used to teach people new things. This church has taught me many things. One is to listen more closely to God. When I first stepped into the church, I knew God was calling me to start a children's ministry. But me, being human and foolish said to God, "Not now, I am resting. I am tired and need to be at peace with myself for just a while." But God came knocking again and I said, "God I have so much to do! I am running a summer camp, picking staff members, going to school! I don't have the time." Then Passover comes around and I kneel before the alter and ask God what he wants of me. He made it clear so many times before. This time he says, "Don't you trust me to lead you along the path? I know the plans I have for you. Believe in me and through you I will accomplish much." So, now I start my long/short walk down the path of being in charge of teaching children about Christ. I'm here for however long God needs me. It is not by my hands that I do this, but by Gods. I feel foolish and stupid that I waited and ignored him so long, but somehow, he must have know I would have done it. Again, I love being a donkey. This little church has taught me, that if there is one thing I need to believe in, it is Christ. The church is ready for me, God is read for me. Sooooo... where the heck an I? I cannot hid from God, so why is it that I find myself hiding now? I am listening God, and I am ready for whatever it is you want me to do. Director of Children's Ministries, God is telling me, I am finally ready.